Music is one the most common ways I express myself. An admitted nerdy keyboard nut, my music tends to be a little heavy on synth but I hear that's coming back. All my songs tell part of my story.
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Could it Be Walking down the avenue My heart is heavy and my soul is blue Kinda down today There are days I feel like a slave Body willing, heart in the grave Wish I could fade away Carrying this secret shame No one really knows my name It's dark inside When You're looking down on me What is it You really see? Could it be? I don't laugh, I don't cry Don't feel much, I can't tell you why It's just that way Never could shake free before It just knocks me back down on the floor That's where I stay Carrying this secret shame No one really knows my name It's dark inside When You're looking down on me What is it You really see? Could it be? Walkin' down the avenue My heart is heavy and my soul is blue copyright © 1986 john w fort Highway 99 I’m lost out here on highway 99 Still searching for a peace I cannot find Had a vision to come and search it here All I know is I can’t have you near Cause that ain't love Oh, we all need love I’m searching above For some elusive love Still hurting out on highway 99 Makes me wonder if I will ever find Somebody, some place, something to do, All the things for me you used to do But that ain't love Oh, we all need love I’m searching above For some elusive love Still searching out on highway 99 I go miles and I never see a sign Still hoping that I will see the day I can just let go of you and walk away I remember when you came into my life How you told me you would make the wrong things right And I admit sometimes I want it like before Then I feel this freedom more and more and more and more Still lost out on highway 99 Still hurting out on highway 99 Still searching you out on highway 99 But I will kiss you goodbye, on highway 99 copyright © 1999 john w fort I Turn to You I don’t like this thing I’m feeling right now Can’t You just take it away somehow I gave up the past, I laid it all down Why did You leave me out here on the ground I open my hand like a flower I am left here with no power Who will easy my anxious mind? I turn to You and pray that You are kind Guess I always ran away before I never let it start before I slammed the door But, it’s cold out here, all alone with my fear Is it so bad to want something more I open my hand like a flower I am left here with no power Who will easy my anxious mind? I turn to You and pray that You are kind I open my hand like a flower I am left here with no power Who will easy my anxious mind? I turn to You and pray that You are kind I Turn to You I Turn to You I Turn to You copyright © 2013 john w fort Let it Rain As I get up, to face the day I hear the wind, the sky is gray But now a smile creeps on my face What once brought pain, now brings grace So let it rain Let it rain, all around I'll be with You, on higher ground I'm stronger with Your love I've found So let it rain I lost myself, in all the lies Behind a smile, hid shame inside Through my pain, You helped me to see Another one, I was meant to be So, let it rain Let it rain, all around I'll be with You, on higher ground I'm stronger with Your love I've found So let it rain The wind, it swirls around my head The rain is cold, I'm filed with dread Darkness falls, I cannot see There's nothing here to comfort me I feel Your hand against my own Though I am scared I'm not alone I can cry, not run away Here in the storm now I can stay Let it rain, all around I'll be with You, on higher ground I'm stronger with Your love I've found So let it rain copyright © 2002 john w fort The Answer When I wake up in the morning When I can't face another day When I wake up in the morning When I can't face another day When life has lost all meaning Who can take my fears away? Where are the answers in this life? Why do they run away from me? What does it take to feel all right? Can You help me to see? Go to work most every morning It's been twenty years today I go to work most every morning It's been twenty years to day If anything I feel less value Than I did on that first day Count my hard earned possessions They haven't done a thing for me I count all my hard earned possessions They haven't done a thing for me All the things that bring me honor Never last in reality Where are the answers in this life? Why do they run away from me? What does it take to feel all right? Can You help me to see? You are the King of creation The Master of it all You are the King of creation The Master of it all You will only take the very best When my name I hear You call If I have not one possession If I watch my honor fall If I have not one possession Even if I watch my honor fall If I do nothing of importance I still have the best of all You are the answer to this life I see You running straight to me I know You make me feel all right Only You're love can set me free copyright © 2019 john w fort |
Broken Heart I was alone in the night I did not have a guide Said I have no fright But I trembled inside I play alone Alone I can’t stand You said, “I’ll take you home Just take My hand.” Broken Heart I had lost my way I was torn apart So I prayed for the day Oh, I took Your hand And now I can see My home at last And together we'll be It was a road into pain That You pointed me down Without my old friend No relief to be found It's cold and it's raw Out here in the light With only You To comfort my fright Broken Heart I had lost my way I was torn apart So I prayed for the day Oh, I took Your hand And now I can see My home at last And together we'll be copyright © 1999 john w fort Not Always Safe
It’s not always safe when I follow you A sorrowful place, sometimes Is where you’re leading me to But I still believe I believe that it’s true It’s worth losing it all just to be here with you I wish I could say I trusted you more But there have been days I felt more alone than before But when there’s nobody else no one for miles that I see If I can open my eyes I see your arms around me It’s not always safe when I follow you A sorrowful place, sometimes Is where you’re leading me to But I still believe I believe that it’s true It’s worth losing it all just to be here with you Yes I’ve been hurt and you didn’t stop the pain I have been cold you left me out in the rain But when I just look take the time to see You’re there hurting and wet and you’re right next to me copyright © 2018 john w fort Free Fall Followed You to the end of the line Wonder where You’ll take me this time I said I’d give it all to make it right All at once, I’ve come to the edge You brought me to this place of dread The chasm below is black as night Nowhere left to go from here I hear Your voice in my ear Just take one step and leave the rest to Me My heart stops, my blood runs cold Too far down, I'm not that bold How can I trust what I can't see? Steppin’ off, I close my eyes I feel the fall, my terror rise Oh, God I pray, You’re here today As I free fall, will I lost it all? Where are those arms of love? Always before I trusted in me What I could do, and what I could see But there’s nothin’ I can see to save me now I free fall through the mist Hours pass, my heart still skips Where is Your hand, to save me now? Steppin’ off, I close my eyes I feel the fall, my terror rise Oh, God I pray, You’re here today As I free fall, I will give it all Into Your arms of love copyright © 1992 john w fort It's Alright Down the road now Been a long, long lonely ride Left my old friend Yeah, I left it miles behind I look around me Not much I recognize One thing I do see You’ve been here all the time It’s alright, it’s alright I like what You’re doing, Jesus with my life, yeah So I let go of all the pieces I held on to, I will I’ll give it away cause when I look at what You made me It’s alright When I think back All the things I tried before They just left me lonely Hollow to the core Took years just to let go And it took years to see I’m gonna turn to something But only You can free It’s alright, it’s alright I like what You’re doing, Jesus with my life, yeah So I let go of all the pieces I held on to, I will I’ll give it away cause when I look at what You made me It’s alright It’s not the rush, that left me wanting more It’s Your peace, that saturates my soul It’s alright, it’s alright I like what You’re doing, Jesus with my life, yeah So I let go of all the pieces I held on to, I will I’ll give it away cause when I look at what You made me It’s alright copyright © 2009 john w fort |
Synthesizers, guitar, bass & vocals by John Fort. Drum programming by Lucas Five. Recorded at Studio Seven.
